Today, I’ve finished all the school stuff including my bachelor thesis and presentation. I’m genuinely glad that I could complete this five year of studying at my university where I wasn’t willing to get into.
Through the past few years, I’ve participated in many projects, academic research, and school activities to just gain some experience and utilize them somehow for my future career. However, I’m now at the point of where I have no idea where I’m going after graduating from this school. This is because I chose to continue studying my major, which is marketing, as a master’s degree in Europe. Here’s the problem comes in. Due to the different education system between Japan and Europe, there’s blank time of not knowing if I’m going to go Europe or staying in Japan.
It’s been scary. What if I wouldn’t be accepted by the school and just miss opportunities to get a job? Without being certain about your future is scary and stresses me out. Especially, considering that other students are getting ready for their new life working for companies, I can’t be sure about my decision.
I know I always wanted to have some kind of guarantee to make sure that I was not making a mistake in my life. However, I try not to think about the worst-case scenario too much. Worrying not helps me anyway.
This phase might sound a bit silly but I would have to say it loud for my sake. While living in Finland, everyone surrounding me repeated this all the time. Before I got to know how liberating it was to make a choice based on my feeling, objective viewpoints had controlled my behavior. I think this tendency derived from how our society has developed as closed villages, but I’m not going to talk about it this time.
Anyway, I was released from hassles for the first time by deciding things by own and saying no sometimes so as to feel comfortable with others. Being honest with myself made me conscious what truly matters in my life. However, when this comes to future careers, everyone might have wished one time how to make dreams come true while facing a gap between ideals and reality. When struggling dilemmas, we easily get discouraged from taking risks because we have to earn money to live today. How is it possible to build an ideal career by pursuing what you like?
A few days ago, I met one person who has own company launching 30 projects so far, he explained how he made his life doing what he loves. Firstly, it’s inevitable to do enough amount of works without pay as taking steps to a big scale of dreams. Through experience we get, the distance separating us and a future plan would be closer and closer. During a certain period of no payment, your engagement should be fun in terms of creativity, productivity, and happiness in your life. Trying whatever seems interesting lets us realize how to hit the next level. In fact, there’s no right or straight path to develop so that we would become capable of things that only we have done. That’s what I’ve learned from the conversation with him and that encouraged me in a way no one else could have ever done.
I was too afraid to fail, get poor, and be judged by people that my life is not successful. But I should be the one who’s confident most about own life by doing what I would love to do. Without the feeling of agreement about things I’m doing, I’ll never truly be satisfied even with large amounts of money in my bank account. Social status doesn’t shape who we really are. Focusing on what we do and how much it fulfilled our life are more important in a way to improve well-being in our life. So I started going places and events, joining small projects and meeting people outside of my comfort zone rather than just wait for a right opportunity to get a perfect job. Let’s see what I’ll get from failures and challenges because after all, do something is much better than nothing!